Asked by Anonymous
That’s right… fandom conflicts are never fun, conficts in general and I avoid them, since I’m not fond of arguing. I hate fighting. But you’re right. They are not always avoidable. And you can’t always swallow everything that weights on your mind. But well.. we tried our best to handle and clarify this issue… but when the final answer is “flight” we can’t help at all… (.__.)
Thank you. I really appreciate your message. :3 I’m glad that my art makes people happy. I’ll give my best as long as I can.
I’m reading things and I just…
Have I been aggressive to anyone? Have I called people names?
I know my answer started this mess, and it honestly WASN’T my intention. There was an issue. I know we are several people to feel it, and because it started being too much I explained the issue. Explaining an issue does not mean blaming anyone in particular (even though I had to answer a specific post to do it).
Explaining an issue means having the opportunity to discuss it. Resolve it, even. I had hoped for a peaceful discussion… Guess internet is not the place for it.
It sucks that you two are seen as the “senpai” around here. When I say it sucks, it’s because you didn’t ask for it and you apparently don’t like it. And I can understand it, it means having a responsibility… With everyone looking up to you, it’s hard for anyone new to arise without approval. It’s stupid, but it’s a stupid internet truth. (Not even limited to internet actually).
So yes. Seeing regretful posts about times past does not help. It’s not motivating. It’s also stupid, but it’s a human reaction. It’s just a fact… And of course you’re allowed to miss your friends, and of course you’re allowed to reminisce. But just acknowledging sometimes that there are good things… would just help all the people who are feeling insecure.
I see people say “you should try instead of blaming people”. Have we not tried? We opened a forum, had No.6 Week, Ahiku also planned No.6 Day… Everything worked for a little while, but then completely failed. Maybe it’s just that the fandom as a whole is unmotivated, I don’t know… but it’s not an issue of trying.
There’s a deeper issue than just saying “it was better before”, but it sure doesn’t help, and that’s all I was trying to say. I was trying to say that it makes me feel sad whenever I see that. Sad isn’t necessarily angry. Elanra, you were expressing sadness in your post, so was I. I did not insult you. I do like and respect you, and did not expect you to take it this way.
I’m sorry for any offense I might have caused. It was not my intention as I said over and over again. Some of the things I read really offended me too, so I hope we can just get past this and maybe have a calm discussion about this matter… and who knows, maybe the fandom could come out stronger?
Please, anyone who feels like chiming in don’t hesitate. As the issue is now out, let’s talk about it.
elanra, I’m sorry, but I totally misunderstood your post then. It was not my intention to offend you and I apologize that you feel sad now. And you should know me well enought to know that I rather give you tomato treats than harming you. But I also felt sad reading your post, just like yuneyn. You’ve written that you can’t make any new No. 6 posts anymore, that there’s no new content and that all major and minor artists of the fandom have moved on. I’m sorry but that just sounded to me as if there’s nothing good left and as if everything concerning the fandom is doomed. It was my own personal feeling concerning your post, because it just sounded like one of the “old = good” vs. “new = bad” posts. I never wanted to blame or hurt you.
Of course you’re allowed to miss your old friends and it’s allowed to feel sad because of them, but please don’t make it sound as if there aren’t any other people left. There are others who are still there and that other people replied to it just shows that they also took it down the wrong pipe. But that’s not the end of the world. Just like yuneyn said, we can talk calmly about this stuff. I don’t know what exactly happened in the past, so that you don’t want to post your own opinion anymore… It must have traumatized you a lot. We didn’t want to do something like that to you. You and thesexymaid are like little idols in the fandom and a lot of people are looking up to you. So you have a lot of influence, just like yuneyn said, even if you didn’t want it at all. It’s not always easy and not all people agree with you. I know you wanted your dash free of conflict, but when you live it’s something you can’t always avoid. In the end it’s just important to find a solution that’s ok for everyone… because it’s like thesexymaid said: The fandom is not just the two of you. But you’re important to the fandom. Back then, I’ve told you several times that I really appreciate what you’re doing with the sourcing matter…
And you two are a huge source of motivation for a lot of them.
It was never my intention to complain because you’re not reblogging my stuff. I also didn’t want more attention or whatever. It just happened to be this post. But there were more posts like that in the past.
And I know that you and others also tried to change something in the fandom. And also that it’s hard and tiring, and a nearly impossible task, but I’m still willed to plan stuff when other people help me and I don’t have to do everything all alone, because in the end everyone feels overlooked and forced to do something they don’t want to do. That’s why we’ve started the forum in the first place… so that all people can decide together and tell their opinions, even though it’s sometimes necessary to compromise. All I ever wanted was that the fandom grows together. That’s what we all wanted for sure.
Ok, and something else…
Of course it’s also like iwatch-theworld said… of course you can’t expext that people notice you when you start doing stuff. I experiemenced that, too and I always kept trying and working and working and nothing but working. :) Not only here… I did this my entire life. (For example… I needed years until I got one of my doujins published here…and that’s just the fun stuff…) That’s what you have to do when you start something new… no matter where or what… here, on youtube, on deviantart… Nothing comes from nothing. But I also understand it when you always try hard and no one notices you and you barely get feedback. ^^ And I mean that in general and everywhere, I don’t mean that in relation to elanra or thesexymaid… It just happened to be like that in this fandom, since they are so popular. And this weird “senpai, notice me” - system on this site doesn’t help at all. So yeah, everyone has to work hard and try it again and again.
I honestly can’t make any new No.6 posts anymore.. there is no new content. Right now, the only on-going No.6 content I am following is the occasional red-eyes-gold-eyes arts and lookwrittenthings's The Best Laid Plans fic. The Pixiv tag is dead. All the major and minor artists of the fandom has moved on, included but not limited to Aruko, Lancha and even Zxs1103. Waka will sometimes succumb to her feels and draw something No.6 but its really really sad how little is left of the fandom that used to fill me with inspiration and excitement everyday. Every post that appears on my dash has either been posted by me or are things I've already reblogged several times… I can't give you guys anything new. Working two jobs and barely getting 5 hours of sleep a day, I can't do much anymore either OTL
I still love No.6 as much as I did at the fandom’s creative peak. I will never get over it. I will never not be moved immensely with feeling at the sight of Shion and Nezumi and all the others I’ve grown to love so much.
I guess I just wanted to rant a little and express how lonely I feel lately in this fandom and how sad it is that everyone has left and is leaving and it’s of course natural, nothing is permanent and time stops for no one. I understand this as I have also moved on from countless things in my life but I am just so, so sad that this is happening with No.6… As childish as it may be and as idealistic as it may sound, I wish the No.6 fandom had stayed the same. It was home to me. I miss everyone so much.
As I was away the whole weekend I didn’t see this post before today. And I just want to say that it makes me sad. Of course, I’m sorry that the fandom isn’t what it used to be, it seemed to be pretty awesome. I guess it’s only natural that people move on, given that the novels, anime and manga are finished now.
But… As a newcomer to this fandom (well, I arrived a year ago but things were already “not as good as before” then), this is precisely what makes me feel unwelcome here. Seeing so often that all the great people have left, that no one does anything anymore, that the discussions aren’t interesting… All that doesn’t even make me want to try. I have written stories, sometimes participated to conversations, and I have friends who are still posting for this fandom regularly… But apparently we’re not “good enough”.
I’m not trying to assert blame or anything. But I’ve seen this kind of posts many times, and I guess it’s come to the point when I couldn’t really stay silent about it. I know I’m not the only one to feel unwelcome, or irrelevant in the No.6 fandom. I’ve personally moved on, I still love No.6 but I’ve stopped thinking about even trying.
So well… I guess I just needed to let that out. Sorry it had to be your post, I have absolutely nothing against you - or anyone for that matter. Just the whole “it was better before now it’s lame” atmosphere in this fandom.
Ah, I didn’t want to write something concerning this topic, because I don’t want to start a fight or something, but I’ve changed my mind now. I joined this fandom a little later than yuneyn, since she was the one who introduced tumblr to me. So I also just know the “dying fandom” and as a part of the “new fandom” I just can imagine how wonderful it must have been back then. I’m sorry that it’s not like that anymore… and that so many people have left the fandom and that everything sucks now. But I don’t know the old fandom. I just know the here and now. I guess that’s the difference, since I don’t have to regret bygone times, because I don’t know them.
Just like yuneyn said, it’s no wonder that there isn’t that much new stuff now, because everything is finished now. But there will be new fans that’ll watch the anime or read the novels in the future. It’s not as if the series is eradicated. They published the first volume in Germany now. And maybe they’ll also publish No. 6 in other countries. Of course it’s not the same when a series is brand-new, but I don’t think the fandom might die completely.
But when the rest of us won’t do anything, it’s no wonder that we don’t have any new stuff. That’s why we had a “No. 6 week” and Children’s Day and Shion’s birthday – to liven things up. That’s why we started the forum, which nobody uses anymore. But it doesn’t help when you’re doing things all alone. I tried my best. And I still do. This blog here is still dedicated to this series. Of course I can’t say if I’ll do this forever… but at the moment I still have some ideas I want to draw. I’m posting new NezuShi fanarts each week, maybe even more. But when I read something like that I feel really sad and as if my work is not appreciated at all… (Then I start to ask myself: Why do I even try so hard? I should quit it…) I felt a lot like that when I was new. Well, I’m too stubborn and eager to give up so easily. But in the end it’s not very motivating, to be honest.
Well, just my 2cents. In the end I totally agree with yuneyn.
Makes me really sad. And maybe some other people too who also try their best. Who knows. (._.)
Fuuuu! o_o That was a hard request… all in one! Ferris wheel, enjoying the view (yeah they enjoy the view of each other XD), talking at the same time and then in a format fitting for a mobile phone. X’D Well, I hope it’s what you imagined, at least to some extent. Probably not, since I don’t know what you’ve imagined. ^^° But here you go. Hope this is okay with you.
Hmmm, some sketchy stuff I’ve drawn. Nothing special, though, just some doodles. Mostly when I was talking to my grandma. But well, I thought I could upload it. Otherwise it would just rot in the depths of my computer.
Asked by Anonymous
Thank you, dear anon! :3 Lemme give you
Asked by shirogai
Aww, thank you very much! :3 I hope can draw even more No. 6 fanarts! ^^
Unmei no nûdoru ~ The noodle of fate!
Who needs a red string of fate when you can have noodles with tomato sauce. X’D
Jesus, I need my vacation or I’m going crazy… just 3 days left.
quod erat demonstrandum - which was to be proven
There are more doujins and pictures of Mao. :) If you want to read them, please follow the links below.
I’m still not quite sure if her eyes are purple like Shion’s or rather grey like Nezumi’s… What do you like better?
Nezumiiiii, good morning! Do you want coffee? Or bread? Or bread dipped in coffee?
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Thank you <3
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Thank you, too! (*_*) *grabs you and spins you around in the air*